I’m sure my Tumblr is going to be seen so to whoever might be reading it all I can say is I tried I had a good heart I was honest and I never hurt anyone except myself but that wasn’t good enough so I step aside to let others pass no one is to blame life can’t be great for all my death is by my own hand for my own reasons I do not belong here I accept that my life made me who I was a monster to those who didn’t know me a saint to those who did my stuff is unimportant let the vultures fight for it be happy I can find happiness finally to my mom I say you did your best I regret only not having written my book a story that needed to be heard I will finally know if I was right about death about good about souls if I am then those I love will feel me again and I will guard them from the clouds or wherever it is if I was wrong then my flame wLll flicker and die tears are no good anymore cry for the living not us I feel tired I am gonna lay down have a good tomorrow